Anxiety no mo!

Today was a good day, as usual!  I had a couple of accountability calls and finished the laundry.  I had a good dinner, cooked by mom, and gave my sis some clothes for the conference this weekend.  The love life:  well, ok, - so I let go and what happened?  Now he is saying things like "I want us to do more together."  Funny thing, it doesn't make me a difference at this point.  I would love for us to do more together and if we don't, that's cool too.  I feel ordinary and that is exactly what I do not want.  I want excitement, adventure and aliveness that lasts a lifetime!  I have it within me to give.  However, I have an unwilling recipient.  I won't force it.  I'm waiting on him to figure it out.  In the meantime, I am weighing my options.  No need to sit still in a world  of constant motion!  Onward and Upward!

What anxiety?

Well today was day 4 of learning transcendental meditation.  It's an easy way to calm your body and mind to dig deeper into your consciousness.  I am doing it twice a day and have already noticed some positive results!  This is good stuff!  So now that I know that I am dating a human, I can act accordingly.  He is currently under pressure and stress from his business.  He's in the midst of a court case and he is kinda touchy.  I don't take it personally as I know that he is working hard.  I just get on the phone, run away at the mouth, say I love you and get off.  When I see him this weekend, it will be better.  I plan to have some fun with him.  Until then, I am working on me!  I am learning about meditation, preparing for my elevator pitch contest and planning two trips...one to NY NY and one to Sedona, AZ.  Sedona is in 2 1/2 weeks.  I am going on a personal retreat to reconnect with myself.  NY is a girl trip to hang out with my friends.  I had plans to also go to Jamaica but it didn't work out with my human boyfriend so I planned some other stuff.  I still hope to go but I have to find someone fun to go with as I only travel with a select group of women.  Also, I talked to one of my exes today.  We had some good laughs on the phone.  Ok, my washing machine finally finished...later dudes!